there was a time when you both got the best of me. those days are never forgotten but will never be relived. sometimes i truly wish you were capable of understanding how it felt to be me. i'm not gonna make this a bitch session about how hard i had it. however, i wouldn't wish the same on anybody.
that brings me to the present and the situation that is completely ridiculous. i am comfortable with my decision to not talk to you. there are a lot of reasons actually but i will only name the important ones bc i don't need any reasons to be completely honest. you have an agenda in your desire to correspond with me, one rooted in insecurity and jealousy. its possible that i would have more sympathy and compassion to understand why somebody else acted the way you do. since its you though i just have no desire to waste my time.
i have forgiven you but i can't forget and trust me i would love to be able to forget. in the end though i'm glad it happened bc i learned a lot.
i will give you a little advice and i don't care that you didn't ask for it bc you need to hear it. you can not change a person or the past. you can not control another persons heart. you can not fake it so well that it works.
i will never go away and you've known that all along. i may be far and i may be near but i will always be around. might as well accept it and make the best of it (and finally approve it since thats the right you feel you have somehow).
maybe then we can talk but i know you don't really want to hear about my day. thats why i am peaceful and you're resentful.
think about it but i already know what you'll do. talk to you most likely never.
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